8 Months…

Today I’m 32 weeks, 8 months pregnant…WHAT, are you kidding me, where did time go.  In some ways I’m so ready to have this baby girl tomorrow but then reality hits and I freak out that I’m about to have my second child and starting all over again.  Some days when I look in my closet and can’t find anything to wear or I’m tired of wearing the same old thing or when I can’t reach down another time to pick something up, or when I can’t sit up in Kayden’s bed and read her more than 2 books a night or I go to the bathroom 24/7,  I’m so ready to not be pregnant and then I feel her kick or I rub lotion on my belly or Kayden and Daddy talk to my belly and kiss it or a stranger comes up to me and asks when I’m due and that my little belly is so cute, I’m not ready for it to all end…I love being pregnant and have been very blessed that both of my pregnancies have been extremely  smooth.  Being that I’m getting so close to my due date I have a million things running through my mind, like what will she look like, will she be a good baby, will she be healthy, will my labor be as smooth as when I had Kayden, will I remember what to do, what do I still need to do, but deep down I know that if she comes tomorrow all my worries will vanish as soon as they place her in my arms…I can’t wait to meet you Karsyn Ava and look into your eyes, kiss your tiny face and tell you just how much I love you…